Don’t Kill Him!: The Story of My Life With Bhagwan Rajneesh

Sheela went to be with Osho to love and to learn, to grow up. Osho didn't fail her, life helped her. Her intense, continuing love of Bhagwan/Osho is exemplary, especially so when compared to all those Sannyasins who felt betrayed, and left the movement disillusioned when the commune collapsed. Considering how Amrito, the doctor, has behaved after Osho left the body, it seems Sheela had good instincts about him. Her life today in running care homes with a heart is truly worthy of a grownup Sannyasin. I've read quite a few autobiographical works of Osho's disciples, all of them usually very negative about Sheela's work in Oregon. I'm glad I read Sheela's account, to be able to get her point of view. It's a good book, and the opinions expressed about her by the German translator are very worth reading

I was questioning enlightenment...and if we see how Osho/Bhagwan dealed in his private life, exposed through Sheela and other disciples from him,... Sorry, Bhagwan had one of the biggest ego.... There exist no enlightenment... Enlightenment is a huge business,... We can go out of our ego and connect with the divine, and have to come back in our ego. Osho admitted at his end of his life, ego can't be destroyed... His disciples, like Sheela had loved him, and surrender to him, and Oshos ego got inflated like crazy. I was a disciple from Osho, Amma, Nusrat, Michael... So more famous the Guru so bigger their ego.

I was there in Poona and in Rajneeshpuram. Something was "off" with Sheela. When I read this book it felt strangely cardboard. When I read Satya Bharti Franklin's book "The Promise of Paradise" I began to put the pieces of the puzzle together. If you want to know what REALLY happened, read Satya's book. It's fascinating. In my opinion, Sheela protesteth too much... and argues how she just did what Bhagwan was telling her to do. She conveniently "forgets" to mention anything about a number of historical facts that were crimes she was accused of and went to prison for. As far as she is concerned... she is completely innocent of any wrong-doing.Bhagwan (now known as "Osho") literally transformed my life... even though I just visited the ashram and didn't give up everything to go live there. Go directly to Osho and read what Osho / Bhagwan had to communicate directly. Taste from the source yourself. He said in one of his discourses that an ashram is just a necessary evil and that it would ultimately turn in against itself because an ashram is just a collection of egos. He said to stay close to the Master at the very beginning. That is where the magic is. And it was totally magical.Even today... looking back...with all the controversy... it was totally amazing. Like some great circus drawing each of us closer to the source of life within ourselves. Ahhhh...what an adventure.

Despite all the conflict and her time in prison, Sheela still loves Bhagwan!Sheela was the power behind the growth of the Rajneesh commune in Oregon, USA and it's ultimate destruction.In the book she denies the poisoning of the people in The Dalles (it is a matter of fact) and leaves out the wiretapping in the commune.After her departure it was Bhagwan (later called OSHO) who requested the FBI investigate the poisoning and wiretapping at Rancho Rajneesh and gave interviews to the World Press.This book may be of interest to other sannyasins, students of Rajneesh and researchers.My visits to Rancho Rajneesh were high points in my life.NamasteSw. Sagari

I was fascinated by the level of accomplishment of the guru and his disciples in such a very short period of time. Sheela explains in detail the many competing priorities and factors involved with building a community from the ground up. This book is very well written and an interesting study on real community growth and development.

An engaging read. Readers should also read memoirs of other sannyasins for a more wholesome picture of what happened in the history of the Rajneesh movement.

Sheela tries to convey her impressions and feelings about her Master and the period when living with him. Something very important not to forget: these are HER impressions. For those who show interest in "Bhagwan", points of view are interesting. The truth...still a mystery.

Honest recount. Gurdjieff once said that Man # 7, one who has acquired higher mental & higher emotional does not degenerate into lower kind.Though Rajneesh did a good job of thought provocation with his system,was nothing more than a philosophy with no practical side.His temper,ego & greed tells us the quality of man & depth.Ma sheela's assertion of his enlightenment is nothing more than her infatuation.

There are some negative reviews, but it is essential to understand that this is Sheela's point of view and she described clearly how she sees what happened in her life. I listened to hundreds of hours of Osho's discourses and read his books and I think this book is also worth of reading.You have a beautiful soul Sheela.

Une histoire vraie vue de l’intérieur

sheela writes her sincere and honest view of the fall of the oregon commune.in many ways i agree and understand her point of view.

Chronologically it first tells the story after leaving the commune, mainly because that.would have been less appealing to read at the end.At certain points it feels too apologetic or justifying lots; but ii is amazing and comforting how Sheela’s love for Bhagwan was and still is. You can read true love in her words, yet I understood more reading how Sherpa lacked also the love for meditation. The book doesn’t explain again what is on “wild wild country” so It is a very good read after watching the docuseries)

Having just watched Wild Wild Country i was reminded of the whole Sheela debacle and the accussations that came her way of being a power hungry meglomaniac. All i can say is that after reading her book i truly recognise that people can change and move on. She has redeemed herself by putting her amazing organisational skills into running a nursing home where she personally cares for elderly and disabled adults. Marvellous work --good on her i say.